My trembling fingers gently clutch the baby bracelet I have hidden in my dress pocket. I decided, despite Fear holding a rapacious death grip on me, my partner and I would see our first baby born, under the honeysuckle bush, in our back yard. I love being outside. Always have. Unfortunately, our home state prohibits home births. Clutching the bracelet, I let go of Fear. The contractions are getting stronger, and instinctively, the midwife picks up this sudden change. She follows my partner and me out back. Shallow breathing while walking; my water breaks open.
Pain intensifies. I want to push…now. Much too early; keep breathing, midwife says. I look around our small backyard. What a beautiful sunny day. Given the clandestine nature of our meeting, the baby could not pick a better day to arrive than during the merriment and festivities of an Earth Day celebration. I close my eyes to feel deeply each contraction. I listen to birds chirping, a better alternative, instead of the incessant unnatural noises of hospital beeping monitors. When our little baby arrived, caught in the shallow water by its father, we had a good laugh. The baby boy turned out to be a girl!
kiddie swimming pool
birthing center at home
trusting flow of body
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